Courageous Lioness!

I didn’t come to G42 to find myself. That wasn’t my purpose. I have always known who I am, no doubt, but I think where I have struggled is WALKING in that confidence. Don’t get me wrong, I am a very confident woman, but I second guess my self CONSTANTLY. I am always doubting my worth, my purpose, if what I have to say is good enough. It’s not something I ever dwelled on, I don’t think it’s something I ever even realized about myself. But almost since the day I arrived here, I have had people calling me out. Friends telling me to speak up, people saying that they were encouraged by the few things I had said, and to say more. I was encouraged, but at the same time confused. Since when had anything I said made a difference? Why would anyone want to hear about the random ‘buzzing’ in my head? And besides, I didn’t come here to talk, I came here to listen and learn.

But I serve a relentless God, and He has called me to be more then a conqueror, and I am stepping into that calling. I’ve started listening to the wonderful friends that have been placed around me and started walking in their encouragement, and I’ve STOPPED listening to the lies of the enemy and STOPPED second guessing myself and doubting my worth. God has blessed me with knowledge about certain things, and passion to see HIS beauty shine through the eyes of others. I can’t stay silent anymore, and I will most likely be wrong some of the time. But having the courage to speak life and light into situations in any circumstances is a powerful thing. I AM a courageous lioness. I AM bold. I AM strong. And I will NOT be silent anymore.

*WHEW* You have no idea how empowering that is to say and believe! Because I know it’s true! And this is something I WILL be walking and living in for the rest of my life! This IS who I am!

I was watching Prince Caspian tonight, and some of the dialogue between Lucy and Aslan really touched my heart. (click the link here to see what I’m talking about)
I know this probably sounds super silly, but in a way, I always knew the ‘buzzing’ in my head was Christ, and I was afraid to speak it out in case I just sounded ridiculous to others. And I can’t dwell on the past and what I didn’t say, but I so look forward to the ways God is going to use me in the future! And I AM as courageous as a lioness!

I’m still young and still learning about so many things. But I’m not going to let that stop me from letting God speak through me and use me in anyway he sees fit! And I NEED all of my friends and family to keep me accountable! Please continue to pray for strength and wisdom to be strong in my heart! Pray for the abolition of passivity and for passion to be ignited! Thank you all so much for your continued love and support!

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